However, this 'objective' has ceased to work. Over the last few months, there were so much 'happenings' in our society, both political and economic issues. It has effected me. Yet, I am now just writing in spits and spats, if at all.
A good excuse is that I no longer find that I am alone in 'my struggle'. Not alone? Struggle? What struggle? Yes, not alone in our national struggle.
Of course, my first and one excuse for not updating or utitlising my blog is that I have had handed in eight assigments in the last year. For the record - as of today i will be attending my 19th lectures (Methodism) this weekend, have two live ones (17th-leadingself, 18th- parables).
Yes, in June 2007, I handed in my assignment on Major Religion - Islam. There I conclude that it is immaterial whether Malaysia is an Islamic state or not;. we just need to help our fellow citizens - the muslim Malays. Islam as a religion is just being used to cling on and be the cohesive vehicle, for a group of people who has now matured or still maturing; being educated and exposed to the post-modern world.
Hence it is with great delight, that March 8 election reflected a 'thinking society' with the colourful players. There are, of course times which were frightening, living through the recent scare of ISA. It is not over yet. But hei, we are still living in moments of history.
When I was in college, I was the only Chinese, female at that, who participated in student sit-ins, occupations, student unions, marches and rally. It was a great, 'lonely' experience then and till now. I have had to make a conscious effort and choice to come back to our Malaysian society and be what my parents' objective of sending my for an overseas education is about: a middle class person with the middle class mangerial job, a house in a middle class area ie bangsar(?), a car and so on...
But now, this time, I am not alone in this Malaysian struggle of the 21st Century. It is with great delight to find that there are so many people who share the same thoughts. Not just thoughts, but the guts, and dare to show it too. And best of all, we have Christians who are willing to go out there and be counted. And of most delight, there are loads of Chinese too!
A good example are my brothers. They are such good chinese sons - good job, family - make loads of money and don't get involved in politics! Very, very middle class and chinese. But it was such a good feeling, when we all jump into our MyV and went for a candlelight vigil.
Yes, I am not alone any more.
